Hi there, and welcome to my blog. This is my first attempt at blogging, as I am horrible at keeping a journal. I used to type my journal on an old typewriter so I could keep up with my thoughts, otherwise, I couldn't read my own writing ;).
For intros...I am currently a stay at home mommy to two boys; a spirited 2 year old and an angelic 2 month old...they are such gifts to my soul and I am so overwhelmingly blessed. But it has been an adjustment. I am a free spirit and like to say I was retired in my 20s, as I pursued a music career then, sang in alternative bands, writing and singing original songs and had a blast...this is where I am most at home, creating and expressing myself on stage, for there, I am me, and I am heard.
Off stage is a little different; Im quiet, keeping my thoughts to myself and observing the world. I'm a deeply spiritual being, and I believe I am on this planet to teach and help humanity in some way. I became a massage therapist and yoga teacher about 6 and 4 years respectively...and I believe this is part of my 'calling', as I am a healer...but the singing still stirs in my soul, calling me back to myself. Someday I wish to synthesize all of my facets into one giant, beautiful healing system; a dancing/groovy, yoga, chanting, healing art.
Im also an artist and worked in clay for years, showing my pots at art fairs, and am working on building my studio in the back yard. My second son kinda put that endeavor on the back burner...so Im feeling creatively frustrated at the present time. I love my sons, and I love being a mom, but just sometimes, I need that creative outlet...time for myself, to focus on the deeper part of me...Im a mom, yes, but I am more, the mom part is just another sparkling facet of who I AM. Yep, that's me, a multifaceted celestial angelic motorcade...I can bang my head to Lincoln Park and go all spiritual to Deva Premal...I don't see a contradiction there...I live for Truth, to be real in everything I do and to experience Life's beauty...and I find reality in emotions...all emotions...even the not so socially acceptable ones. Anger can be very cleansing when you move through it and then let it go...my does that work!
So here I am, I met my husband four years ago, became pregnant with our first son a year later, bought and moved into a present home to a new town for both of us, experienced Hurricane Wilma and her 4 feet of ocean kiss in our home...then became pregnant with our second son, married my husband six months ago and our second son was born the end of March. Looking at that in writing...no wonder Im tired and a little overwhelmed!
So, being new to the neighborhood and 6 months pregnant, I didn't make that many new friends..Im not the best pregnant woman...I find it frustrating the bigger and slower I became ;)...as I said, I am a free spirit...babies and children? Great? The extra 30 pounds on my body...not so great. The hormonal ferris wheel Im on...also not so great.
This is my attempt at a creative outlet. I do not have a best friend down the road to go to coffee and discuss our days, our thoughts, etc. on a daily basis, so this will be that friend. This will be my coffee clatch...someplace where I can vocalize all my thoughts...even those I edit from my friends because they might be freaked out.
I read somewhere that Motherhood is one of the most spiritually challenging experiences one can have; it is easy to be spiritual sitting alone on a mountain chanting to the heavens, it quite the challenge to be at peace when your son has painted the dog, again, painted the baby...again, spilled the detergent and emptied his diaper...somewhere...chilling to say the least. So I am the OhmMama...reaching oneness with everything through my past training in bodywork, yoga, meditation and chanting...I AM one with Source, and I am at Peace...Ohm Shanti, Shanti, Shanti...yes I lose it, Ohm Sh**, Sh**, Sh**, but I return, again to my center, forgive my humanness and continue on...each experience is an opportunity to learn, to breath and to love/live.
I am a work in progress, I rise and fall, I fail and succeed, and my babies still love me...that is my saving grace, that is my peace, that is my joy. I am home.
OhmMama
